My sad nights
My nights turn sad
Every time she comes to the bed,
Does she make love to me?
Without being her who my soul loves.
Fulfil the duties
Of a loved wife?
Get into the duties
of being a housewife.
Only God knows
All my cravings;
What I need is not a penis,
But to give in my soul.
Fill in my sad hours,
Erase her tears,
Smile, happy
Pretend that we are to be applauded.
What do actresses know
About cheap performances?
It is me who plays
The role of beloved wife.
It is not for my children,
that I'm still between her sheets,
But for stability
And a society that stomps us.
Many of us during the nights
Escape from our beds,
We fly distances
And seek other souls.
The look of the absent-minded
Doesn't say much to so many,
But wives
Know what they are about.
I don't want more sad nights,
Or mourning between my blankets,
Shining the sun outside
And being light from the dawn!
© Andrea Tutor Fernández Santa María
Andrea Tutor Fernández Santa María, (pseudonym of María Caridad Torres Vila) is a Cuban-Spanish writer who lives in Spain.
Arts and expression + Poetry